Living with an Invisible Illness
Ok, if you're reading this at this point, chances are that you know me. You either grew up in the same town as me, went to school with me at some point, or are possibly related to me. You're reading this because we're friends. Since we are friends, you also probably know that I have a neurological disorder called Fibromyalgia. It's this thing where my body makes too many pain signals, even when it shouldn't. If I had to describe it to a stranger, I'd liken it to this:
You know how you feel the first day that the flu is coming on? Weird, and achy and tired, and easily distracted? Ok. There's that feeling.
Now, let's also add in that feeling that you get when you went to the gym that one time and totally did too many squats trying to impress that hot girl in the spandex tights. Remember how much your back and legs hurt the next day? Good.
Ok, last one - I promise! The last time you took daytime cold medicine and went to your Calculus II final and sat there looking at the formulas thinking "when did I learn what all of these funny looking squiggly symbols and lines mean?" That moment of lost-ness and total confusion? Add that in there too. SO. So far, there's flu-like achiness, post-workout muscle & joint pain, and also my least favorite, the confusion that is know to the rest of the FMS world as "fibro fog".
Now, don't get me wrong. I am the opposite of a negative person, and not every day is total agony. I have to admit that in the last 6 months, since I started going to the gym, I have felt much better than I have in YEARS! Like, 9 years. That's a LONG TIME! Yay! I still have a ways to go to reach some of my fitness goals ( ONE pullup! That's all I ask, upper body!) and then to keep at it, so I can maintain that level of fitness, and therefore this level of "pretty-good-feeling-ness". That's a word I just totally made up.
Here lately, as a central Texan I have been subjected to ABSURD levels of mountain cedar pollen, and along with 85.7% of the rest of Austin, have been suffering from crazypants cedar allergies. Well, during my month-long cedar fever hiatus from feeling "normal-for-me", I haven't really been able to do much. I do my best to keep up with my teeny business, and try to keep the house not-in-shambles, which is just under the "presentable" on the scale of house cleaning, and a couple notches above "You have rats for roomates?".